Well, I have two answers for this. One silly (but serious) and the other is just serious. I'll go with serious first...
"Ten things every child with Autism wishes you knew" by Ellen Notbohm.
I got this book before we even had Camden's diagnosis. I knew there was something going on with him that was different than the other two kiddos, well- than Candace because Carter was just a baby still. But I figured it couldn't hurt and it completely opened my eyes. The summer Camden was 3 and I was pregnant I read "Raising a strong willed child" by Dr. James Dobson. That book did help quite a bit but Ten Things was a deal changer for me. It made me realize things about Camden and myself, an insight to the reasons why he does or doesn't do certain things, and how to treat situations differently. I have passed it around to the grandmothers and they treat him differently now after reading it as well. i wish my husband and the grandpa's would read it. Mainly my husband, just because I think it would be so beneficial for HIM, as well as our son.
And now for my "silly" one. The Twilight Saga. He he he!! As if you didn't know (if you know me, that is). I had been told about the books by friends and my friends mom how amazing they were and that I should read them and that I'd really like them. My answer was always "whatever". I think the reason was because of my own mother. She brought us up thinking that the smurfs were evil, so vampires must be too right?? Well, I read all the books and I love them. My hubby makes fun of me for RE reading them. They are THAT good!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Day 16- Someone you could live without
This entry doesn't sound very nice. So I'm going to make in not quite as mean. I'm not wishing death upon anyone, the person(s) I could live without would go on with their lives, just not in mine. That said I really only can think of one person I am tired of dealing with. Not that I hate her or she made me mad. She is a nice girl, but just knowing that when she calls I don't want to talk, when she comes over I don't want her to and the fact that I'm okay with not being her friend makes me realize I'm not a being a good friend to her so why waste each others time? BUT I'm too nice (back to day 2 confession, lol) to cut someone off. I've done it once in my life and it was totally necessary but the only reason I was able to do that was because I was pregnant. I get feisty when I'm preggers. So I've been trying the fadeout thing. It was going okay for a week or so, but now... I don't know. We got off the fadeout track. I'm a wheenie.
No names. Not very exciting, I know, but I know her name and that's really all that matters.
No names. Not very exciting, I know, but I know her name and that's really all that matters.
Monday, July 4, 2011
Day 15- Something or someone you can't live without, because you've tried living without it.
My husband is someone I can't live without. We broke up in high school the day we found out we were pregnant with Candace. About an hour before we found out, to be exact. We were not together for 2 1/2 years. During that time I had a boyfriend and he had girlfriends but I always thought about him every once in a while. When we were both single things kind of fell into place for us. I got scared and fought it a little, but came to my senses before Joey gave up on me. Thank God for that. I could have missed out on having everything I'd ever wanted because I was scared of it. Its pretty silly when I look back on it all now. But I'm glad I have my hubby and I don't know what I'd do without him. Hopefully I will never find out.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Day 14- Write a letter to a hero that has let you down.
Oh wow. Uuuuuummm.... Well, I'm not so sure about hero but someone I have looked up to and wanted approval from for my whole life would be my mom. And I'm so glad she doesn't read this. Here goes...
Mom- I am not sure when we became frenemies, if it was when I was being a turd teenager or before that but I hate our relationship. Its sucky. I've always wanted you to love me for me, despite all my flaws. I know I am not perfect, I don't need it pointed out repeatedly, year after year. Its hurtful and makes me resent you when things get brought up over and over.
Some of my mistakes are funny yes, but to keep being reminded of what a rotten kid I was and how mean I was to Brady isn't really helping anything. Or do you think it is? Trust me, I feel HORRIBLE about the scar on his face. I have cried quite a few times about that and I have apologized to Brady. He's forgiven me, when will you? I am not a screw up anymore, I'd like to not be treated as one anymore. I know you think I was such a bad kid but I really wasn't. Yes, I was naive and yes I did get pregnant at 18. But that wasn't on purpose. I got caught on my first or second time! And, most importantly, you love Candace, so do we really need to rehash that one?
I think that if you are honest with yourself, you aren't completely happy with your life. And I am easy to bring down. I think that's why you treat me the way you do. I also truly believe you don't realize how you treat me. You can't, or you wouldn't do it. It baffles me that as a counselor you do some of the things you do and say the things you say. I know that Daddy isn't perfect, BELIEVE ME. And I don't defend him as if its my job, I defend him when I feel its necessary. The latest defense being that my father is not autistic. I cannot even believe that you try to justify your two's relationship issues with deciding he has autism or aspergers. Now, lets not get mixed up here- there is nothing wrong with someone having autism, its just that my dad isn't someone who has it. Yes, he has a routine. He's a grown man with a job and household duties who also likes to golf and watch baseball. He's a simple man. No, he's not a social butterfly. But he has friends, he is friendly with strangers at stores and restaurants, he gets along with your friends. He doesn't show affection to you or call you beautiful, yes that's hurtful but no- you don't get to justify that with " since he has autism, he can't show affection. And I can't hold it against him if its not something he's capable of". That's the biggest crock of crap I've ever heard. As someone who is actually dealing with autism on a daily basis, its almost insulting that you would just toss that out there. And then you tell other people too! It blows my mind.
Maybe try getting off your high horse for a little while. If you would stop looking down on us imperfect people, you might realize you just might be as messed up as the rest of us. Its so frustrating and disappointing that you act as though you are so much better than everyone. You are such a smart lady but sometimes you just don't get it.
I love you, and I know you love me. I wish we didn't fight so much. Especially now that you have cancer. I'm not ready to lose you.
Mom- I am not sure when we became frenemies, if it was when I was being a turd teenager or before that but I hate our relationship. Its sucky. I've always wanted you to love me for me, despite all my flaws. I know I am not perfect, I don't need it pointed out repeatedly, year after year. Its hurtful and makes me resent you when things get brought up over and over.
Some of my mistakes are funny yes, but to keep being reminded of what a rotten kid I was and how mean I was to Brady isn't really helping anything. Or do you think it is? Trust me, I feel HORRIBLE about the scar on his face. I have cried quite a few times about that and I have apologized to Brady. He's forgiven me, when will you? I am not a screw up anymore, I'd like to not be treated as one anymore. I know you think I was such a bad kid but I really wasn't. Yes, I was naive and yes I did get pregnant at 18. But that wasn't on purpose. I got caught on my first or second time! And, most importantly, you love Candace, so do we really need to rehash that one?
I think that if you are honest with yourself, you aren't completely happy with your life. And I am easy to bring down. I think that's why you treat me the way you do. I also truly believe you don't realize how you treat me. You can't, or you wouldn't do it. It baffles me that as a counselor you do some of the things you do and say the things you say. I know that Daddy isn't perfect, BELIEVE ME. And I don't defend him as if its my job, I defend him when I feel its necessary. The latest defense being that my father is not autistic. I cannot even believe that you try to justify your two's relationship issues with deciding he has autism or aspergers. Now, lets not get mixed up here- there is nothing wrong with someone having autism, its just that my dad isn't someone who has it. Yes, he has a routine. He's a grown man with a job and household duties who also likes to golf and watch baseball. He's a simple man. No, he's not a social butterfly. But he has friends, he is friendly with strangers at stores and restaurants, he gets along with your friends. He doesn't show affection to you or call you beautiful, yes that's hurtful but no- you don't get to justify that with " since he has autism, he can't show affection. And I can't hold it against him if its not something he's capable of". That's the biggest crock of crap I've ever heard. As someone who is actually dealing with autism on a daily basis, its almost insulting that you would just toss that out there. And then you tell other people too! It blows my mind.
Maybe try getting off your high horse for a little while. If you would stop looking down on us imperfect people, you might realize you just might be as messed up as the rest of us. Its so frustrating and disappointing that you act as though you are so much better than everyone. You are such a smart lady but sometimes you just don't get it.
I love you, and I know you love me. I wish we didn't fight so much. Especially now that you have cancer. I'm not ready to lose you.
-Meg
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Day 13- A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days.
There are so many to choose from because music is how I deal with things. It can change my bad moods, it can enhance a good mood, it can get me in the mood ;) I have particular songs/cd's that have helped me thru some tough times- I still can sing along to any Boyz II Men song or Deana Carter's CD. But as a grown up the winner would have to be skillet.
http://www.skillet.com/video/7382f1-awake-and-alive/ <That's one of my favorite songs of theirs and its gonna be on Transformers 3!! Yay!!!My all time favorite would have to be " Those Nights".
Dear Skillet, there are so many reasons why I love you guys. The first time I saw you was at Creation 2008 when I was pregnant. The first time I felt my baby move was at your show. And then when I listened to your cd's after that, he'd move around in my tummy. When Carter was a little over one and could move around fairly well, we would rock out to your music while I did the dishes. He was so funny, he'd stand in the middle of the baby gate and while holding on totally head bang along with you. I live near Seattle and drove 5 hours to see you guys in Spokane. It was supposed to be me and my daughter but she got sick so I brought Carter with me. The show was in November so he was only 9 months old. He loved it. He was rocking his head along with you guys. This summer I'm taking all the kids to see you guys at Creation again, I can't wait! I've gotten a few of my friends hooked on you guys, which isn't hard. I have always listened to loud and shouty music when I have a headache or am grumpy but now when I do that I'm not listening to crap. I love that. And I think that's why even though I turn y'all on when I'm mad, it doesn't stay that way past one song. I get my aggression out, listen to cool music and praise God all at the same time. I love you guys! Favorite band ever! And on my ipod- you guys have my top songs taken up and by about 100 plays. Coolbeans, huh?? :) See you in a few weeks!
-Megan
http://www.skillet.com/video/7382f1-awake-and-alive/ <That's one of my favorite songs of theirs and its gonna be on Transformers 3!! Yay!!!My all time favorite would have to be " Those Nights".
Dear Skillet, there are so many reasons why I love you guys. The first time I saw you was at Creation 2008 when I was pregnant. The first time I felt my baby move was at your show. And then when I listened to your cd's after that, he'd move around in my tummy. When Carter was a little over one and could move around fairly well, we would rock out to your music while I did the dishes. He was so funny, he'd stand in the middle of the baby gate and while holding on totally head bang along with you. I live near Seattle and drove 5 hours to see you guys in Spokane. It was supposed to be me and my daughter but she got sick so I brought Carter with me. The show was in November so he was only 9 months old. He loved it. He was rocking his head along with you guys. This summer I'm taking all the kids to see you guys at Creation again, I can't wait! I've gotten a few of my friends hooked on you guys, which isn't hard. I have always listened to loud and shouty music when I have a headache or am grumpy but now when I do that I'm not listening to crap. I love that. And I think that's why even though I turn y'all on when I'm mad, it doesn't stay that way past one song. I get my aggression out, listen to cool music and praise God all at the same time. I love you guys! Favorite band ever! And on my ipod- you guys have my top songs taken up and by about 100 plays. Coolbeans, huh?? :) See you in a few weeks!
-Megan
Sunday, June 26, 2011
30 Days of Truth- Day 12
Day 12- Something you never get compliments on. My awesome organizational skills. I don't have the cleanest house, we have 3 kids and most of us are home most of the time- its very well lived in. BUT... My bill binder is so organized and easy to figure out what bills are due, how much they are and my stamps, return labels and envelopes are all in there too. My Bubba binder is also very organized and neat so if I need to send a copy of some of his diagnosis paperwork or look up his last IEP paperwork I know where to go. I like loading the dishwasher because its like doing a puzzle. It takes me longer than most but man can I cram it full of dishes!! And the leftover dishes that don't make it in and I hand wash- they get stacked all cool like a mountain that doesn't fall over. I get that from my dad. And the towels are set up certain ways, my salon area cabinet and trolley are all nice, the kid's toy shelf and their closets. Mine and Joey's closet- that is a thing of beauty. My best friend was helping me one time hang up clothes before a party and I had to tell her which way to hang his shirts so they face the right direction. Then they gets put together by groups of: t-shirts by color, sweatshirts also by color, jerseys by color (and sport), his work shirts go like this: coaches collared shirts, regular collared shirts, short sleeves, collared shirts, long sleeves and then button down shirts. He he he!! She thought I was CRAZY! But ya know, whatev I like the way it looks, it makes it easier for him and I am the one who does the clothes so why not?? Call me anal if you wish but I bet you wish your closet was as nicely put together ;) My next project is the garage. I'm myself the summer to get it finished and then that too, will be a thing of beauty.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
30 Days of Truth- Day 11
Day 11- Something people seem to compliment you on the most. I wrote the previous sentence and sat here for a good 2 or 3 minutes thinking. I don't leave the house very often, and when I do I probably only dress to impress half the time. I'm gonna have to go with my hair. That's been the most consistent one over the years. That and my eyes. Actually, I don't really get compliments on my eyes very often, unless I do em pretty- but I should! They are my favorite, he he he!!
This should make me happy, but it actually makes me a little sad. I'm by no means shallow but I used to get compliments ALL THE TIME. Whistles, honks when I was younger and walked everywhere, free drinks, all that crap. I definately don't wanna go back in time but I do kinda miss that. I mean, I"m still me, but I guess with an extra __ pounds on me, strangers don't see past that. Well, I'm in the process of fixing that, and not just so I can be cute again- although that is definately part of the plan ;) I miss jogging and running. Without wanting to die. I want to run around with my kiddos without worrying about extra jiggle, and yes, I want to wear cute clothes again. So far I'm down 6 pounds from last month. Woo hoo!
This should make me happy, but it actually makes me a little sad. I'm by no means shallow but I used to get compliments ALL THE TIME. Whistles, honks when I was younger and walked everywhere, free drinks, all that crap. I definately don't wanna go back in time but I do kinda miss that. I mean, I"m still me, but I guess with an extra __ pounds on me, strangers don't see past that. Well, I'm in the process of fixing that, and not just so I can be cute again- although that is definately part of the plan ;) I miss jogging and running. Without wanting to die. I want to run around with my kiddos without worrying about extra jiggle, and yes, I want to wear cute clothes again. So far I'm down 6 pounds from last month. Woo hoo!
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