Day 10- Someone you need to let go or wish you didn't know. I don't really have anyone in my life making it awful right now. But there may be one or two people who if they faded out of my life, I wouldn't mind.
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The C word. I am not a big fan. Not since my Grandma Fisher died of lung cancer a month after I got married. Probably 6 or 7 months ago I found out my other Grandma had skin cancer on the tip of her nose. They got it all and she is ok. Earlier this week my mom told me she has it. Uterine cancer. Ugg. I hate cancer. She is going to have surgery and her doctor says they can get it all and its not a big deal (to them), it still scares the crap out of me. The scariest part for me is that my grandma fisher died of cancer, my Grandma Sliva had it too and now my mom does. So am I next in line? This crap I have (LS) ups my chance by 5-10% already, so does all my female family members having some form of cancer make it even higher? I know this is not about me, but it really makes you think about everything. I can't die. Joey and the kids would be lost without me. And I'm not being cocky, I'm dead serious. I know, not funny right, but with some things you have to laugh or joke or its too hard. And my mom is already picking out her funeral music and outfits so I can joke too. (Our family is kind of messed up, lol, but in a good way). So, I guess more updates to follow on this. Have I mentioned I hate cancer? Well, I DO!
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