Lead Me

So I am the girl that loves to be sung to. An old boyfriend/friend of mine and I would sit around for hours just singing along with the radio and our favorite cd's and sometimes he would sing songs to me. Sometimes he would just sing to me without the radio. It made me feel very special. I know that not everyone is the same and not everyone is a great singer, but I still like to be sung to. And every once in a while my hubby will sing along to a song or hum it as we sit together or dance in our room. Its very sweet and I truly love when he does that, because it doesn't happen very often. 

I have a (bad?) habit of picking out songs for him to sing to me/think of me when he hears them. And I tell him this and he rolls his eyes, lol. Well, sometimes there comes along a song that I just cannot pretend he is singing to me, one that he has to hear for himself and that he needs to sing along to, not even to me. A friend from church told me about it and the first time I REALLY heard it I cried and cried. Now even I still cry when it gets to the last verse/chorus. Because I so badly want that to be my husbands prayer. And I can't make him do it, it has to be on him. I love my husband so much, but I just think that we could have so much more depth to us if he were a true man of God and led our house as a man of God like the bible says to. Our old pastor Kevin who married us had this framed art thing at his house that was a braid and it said something about marriage should be like a tight braid with God, my husband, and the wife being the cords that make the braid, when there are three strong cords woven together, its so strong. I want that for us. Lyrics...

• LEAD ME by Sanctus Real
• I look around and see my wonderful life
  Almost perfect from the outside
  In picture frames, I see my beautiful wife
  Always smiling, but on the inside
  
  Oh, I can hear her saying
  
  Lead me with strong hands
  Stand up when I can't
  Don't leave me hungry for love
  Chasing dreams, but what about us?
  
  Show me you're willing to fight
  That I'm still the love of your life
  I know we call this our home
  But I still feel alone
  
  I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes
  They're just children from the outside
  I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine
  They're independent, but on the inside
  
  Oh, I can hear them saying
  
  Lead me with strong hands
  Stand up when I can't
  Don't leave me hungry for love
  Chasing dreams, what about us?
  
  Show me you're willing to fight
  That I'm still the love of your life
  I know we call this our home
  But I still feel alone
  
  So Father, give me the strength
  To be everything I'm called to be
  Oh Father, show me the way
  To lead them
  
  Won't You lead me?
  
  To lead them with strong hands
  To stand up when they can't
  Don't want to leave them hungry for love
  Chasing things that I could give up
  
  I'll show them I'm willing to fight
  And give them the best of my life
  So we can call this our home
  Lead me 'cause I can't do this alone
  
  Father lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone.



Joey & Megan- February 7, 2004